One of my recurring challenges over the years has been finding a sense of purpose in my work. I almost always find myself working with smart people who are really good at what they do. Being in information technology, the work has always been interesting. There were times when it was so exciting to be part of the future turning into the present. During those times, I would be at work early and lose myself in whatever I was learning. Then I would go home and work on part of the project late into the night.
As time went on, there were fewer exciting things happening at work. Things became predictable enough that I had time to think about the meaning of work beyond politics and urgent projects. I took on different responsibilities in order to add new skills and create new value. I moved within the organization, trying to determine where I might finally feel as if I belonged.
One cold, November day, I was sitting in my first real office — with a door that closed and walls that went all the way to the ceiling — and realized I was exhausted again. The day had barely started. Yet I wanted to go home. I wanted to be able to leave and never come back. I kept asking why I was doing this to myself every day. At the same time, I felt guilty for not appreciating a job other people would have taken gladly.
For now, ask yourself what your purpose might be at work. Most work is about helping. We help people, animals, plants, oceans, and the planet. We make something better. Often we make something feel better or work better. When you are having a good day at work, how are you making things better? For now, that is your purpose at work.